Very soon…

It has taken me 6 months to write! Why?

I guess I have been busy, with work, with growing my enormous belly, with pelvic pain, with pregnancy yoga, with holidays to Tenerife, with my Mum’s visit, with my last exam to get yet another degree (‘never stop learning’), with my broken car that smelled burnt oil inside which freaked me out completely (‘I am going to asphyxiate as is my unborn child!’). We’re both fine by the way.

My due date is this Sunday, so really close and I genuinely think my skin cannot stretch anymore because if it was it would tear, aaa!

My plan was to write to my child upfront on this very forum and to introduce the child into the worlds’ matters and the ‘life on earth’.

But then…a few genius musicians passed away, including the third of my childhood heroes Prince (after Michael J. and Whitney H.) who got found dead in his mansion’s lift; some crazy people shot other people frantically almost every day; some crazy politicians used the desperate refugees from distant countries to antagonize those of us (still us-humans) who got too comfortable with safety (!) and possessions; some allegedly desperate refugees proved to be super stupid and too horny to keep the zip up which pissed out (rightly so) a lot of ‘on-the-fencers’ when it comes to the refugee crisis. Donald Trump rose to the position of a major arrogant bully in the world; Polish far right government managed to pull the Poles out on the streets for the first time in decades and managed to fall into serious financial troubles in just 6 months after gaining the parliamentary majority; the Queen turned 90 in rain and the UK suddenly realised it needs its sovereignty back from Brussels (?) and holds the Brexit referendum today and so on and so on…

The world got so divided, so antagonized, so miserable, so violent and I have not even mentioned the Zika virus!

I have had no desire to write about anything. I just felt sorry for the world, for myself, for the fact that my childhood, my innocence is gone forever and the world is turning into a horrible place.

How ironic it is to bring a child into this world just now. There seem to be no hope, the recent events seem to lead to another global unrest, another world war.

But then…wait…

We had two weeks of summer two weeks ago in Scotland and it was lovely. I went to the beach a few times, no not to swim, we are still in the North after all, but to walk on the silky sand; Poland made it to the kick-off stages of Euro2016 and my car is now fixed.

So maybe, maybe there is hope.

I wish you all as always a very good day and if you don’t hear from me for the next 6 months I will be busy breastfeeding 🙂




Mondays take a long time to get through. This is because Monday is the first day of a week and people are lazy and sleepy after the weekend.
Sometimes Mondays are exciting but this is usually when you are on annual leave or if Monday is a bank holiday. In Scotland by the way, there is much less bank holidays than in England and seriously less than in Poland. Especially recently we have a bank, or I shall rather say, a church holiday almost every month in Poland.

Anyway, Monday can be nice.

Today for example, the sun is shinning and the city looks really sweet, quite spring-like even if it is a middle of winter and there was frost today on my car.

I woke up with a headache and I find it difficult to build a sentence in English. You need to remember I am not a native speaker, all I know I have learnt, it is not my first language.

We have had some discussions with your Dad on how we will teach you both our languages. The problem is you Dad does not speak Polish so it will be a bit awkward if there is three of us trying to talk. My idea is that I will talk to you only in Polish and your Dad will talk to you only in English in which case you will naturally pick up both languages and in the future if you cannot or don’t want to do anything else you can be a translator 🙂 Good plan?

Let’s see how it goes. Maybe your Dad will suddenly feel an urge to learn my beautiful language. Maybe.

Other news – a great musician died today – David Bowie. You will definitely listen to his music a lot.

And today is a birthday of two of my very good friends. I spoke to one last night already (I wanted to be first to wish her happy birthday) and I will call the other this afternoon. She does not yet know about you and I am looking forward to see her reaction 🙂

Lots of love,
Your Mama.

2016 – The World We Live In.

Today is the first day of a new year. This is a year 2016. The world we live in is green and blue. It is stunning, so stunning that often it will take your breath away. The trees, the rivers, the beaches, the plains, the mountains, the animals and, finally, the people, all this can be wonderful (I will have to play you ‘What a wonderful world’ by Luis Armstrong).

It can also be scary and sad. Unfortunately.

The scariness of this world should not bother you for at least a few first years. When the time comes I will explain to you why people are sometimes bad.

Will I?
Hmm, do I know?
Do I know why people exalt over the others, why they want to control the others, why they mistreat them, torture them and often kill them. I do not really know why. I can speculate, imagine, try to understand. I can read books in the subject and draw conclusions. In fact, we can do it together.

But for now… relax and sleep. I live a healthy life (I am doing my best) so you can grow healthy and happy.

We are waiting for you in this world of paradoxes and opposites.

Your Mama.